I miss...

my Blogger blog and the good things I use to write on here.

I need to get it back.

I'm lost.

School is starting soon.

I'm not ready.

Please don't eat me alive.

So I finally heard back from Polyphony HS...

about this piece. I'm not sure if I posted it here before but I'm not gonna go searching through my history so here it is again.

A One Man Audience

The sun has set and the moon and stars have taken their place in the dark night sky. I lay cuddled in bed with blankets and close my eyes to drift off to sleep. As I drift away a whole new world opens up to me. From the black vastness comes light filled with magical stories of sparkling vampires, spell casting wizards and trips across the sea. The sights that fill my head rarely remain the same, each time I close my eyes a new experience awaits me. Tonight I am a princess in a land far away ruled by my father to be handed down to me, while other nights have not been so sweet. My head filled with scary thoughts of fire breathing dragons or being swallowed whole by giant fish of the sea but in the end the dreams are just dreams and the next morning I am always set free. I open my eyes and stretch from my position to the sound of my beeping alarm. Now the moon has set and the stars have gone, the sun is out and today is another day to be awake and breathing.

So apparently it was "a little cliché, has great potential," and obviously I made lots of grammar mistakes because I'm the bad grammar queen and they said a bunch of other stuff but I'll leave that out. They said I should revise and send it back in. Not sure if I'm gonna do it, but if any of you out there have any more comments let meh know. Cause I like improving on my writing even if it's not for a booky thing.

Love from bloggy land,

Ka'u

So I've just decided...

That I’m completely in LOVE with Anthropologie. (: The only thing I’m not in love with about them is their prices. FML. Well and a lot of their stuff is made for chics with a job where you gotta dress a certain way and some of the prints suck. BUT their panties are the cutest and they have some real nice jewelry. (:

I just ordered some cute stuff from there but stopped myself at a $50 limit. I went a tiny bit over, but not much. I got three things. (: I’m excited. 5 - 7 business days couldn’t come soon enough. LOL!

Go check it out! :D

Lahaina Adventurersssss.

Sorta. Today I took my grandpa's friend's kid and his girlfriend around Maui. Cause their visiting and never been here. I mean like who hasn't been to Maui?! Okay, lots of people, but my point still remains. Haha. Anddddd so we went shopping in Lahaina. Went to eat in Waikapu where I work. Went to Foodland to buy sunscreen so the whiteys (; don't burn then went to Secrets for a beach cruise sesh. Then went to watch Dinner for Shmuks. Which by the way was a bad ass movie. Best part? The part where this guy was all "And Morgan Freeman came." And this little boy in the movie theatre asks loudly "Who's Morgan Freeman?" and the whole theatre (which didn't have many people) laughs loudly. It was jus cute. My papa and me made Laulau for the visitors and some of his work friend people to come eat dinner. It was yuuuuuuummmmmy. Well I know this is a lame post about my day but I'm to tired to be a good writer.

NIGHT-A-ROONIE. (:

You idiot.

You make no sense to me. Srsly. Why would you post something practically saying “I’m having an abortion” on your tumblr. I don’t see the reasoning. I mean I don’t disagree with your choice cause obviously little miss high school you’re not ready for a kid but I don’t see why you need to inform everyone on the Internet about it. You say your not the kind of girl that’s gonna show it off in school, by that I’m guessing you meant your tummy with the baby bump, but what stuns me is you’ll plaster it all over the internet, for anyone who wants to read it, read it.

Were you looking for pity? For reassurance? Something, anything? Cause all those people on your tumblr sending you stuff saying not to feel guilty, that it was the best thing for you, for the baby, and that your strong for making that choice, well their wrong. You should feel guilty cause you didn’t even believe in abortions but the second it was an option for you you took it. Feel guilty more for being a hypocrite then for killing a helpless baby. You weren’t strong, you were weak, that was the easy way out. Anyone could make that choice. That choice lead to very little consequences unlike the latter, where you would have suffered more then no swimming, no baths and no exercise.

If that baby came in to your life you’d suffer. That’s a harsh thought you wrote about. An harsher one is that from that second an outsider could tell you weren’t ready to be a mom, you couldn’t handle it, and that you weren’t strong enough. You were selfish, thought of you and your love only, forgot for that second that the decision you made affected that child you created too. I’m happy for that kid though, although it will never get the chance to live a life, at least it didn’t have to live a life with unfit parents.

People make me sick. Especially super young idiots.

*It’s not that I’m against abortions or anything. I’m just against idiots who post shit like this online. Sorry about the major rantage. Had to get it out. Maybe I shouldn’t have posted it but oh well, it’s my thoughts and views and if someone decides to unfollow be because of them that’s fine with me.

Is it just me???

Or are shows like Jersey Shore fuckin ridiculous?! Don't be offended and unfollow me or anything, or actually it's kay. Do whatever you like. lol. I'm jus say I think that shows like Jersey Shore are totally unlegit like having a second season of Glee.

Testing, 1,2,3, Testing.

So I worked everyday this week and I'm working tomorrow, probably not Saturday and definitely not Sunday (thank god). Whatevers though, trying not to complain bcuzzzzz I like having money!! :D (Well who doesn't?) Anyways, when I was riding home with my uncle he asked if I had any plans...I realize that I don't do much of anything on work nights. lol. I'm such a LAMER! lol.

OH well. I guess I'll survive. It'll be a good thing for when school starts. I'm for real gonna get some bad ass grades this year. I NEED TOO! &&& I TOTALLY WILL! I really hope I can so I can get some freeee monayyy next year. Can't be dependent on my papa for the rest of my college life, I don't wanna be one of those kiddies. Schools not that expensive but still. One day I'll return the favor.

Alright, so this is my I-think-i'm-coming-back-to-blogger Test Post, hopefully you all enjoyed. Let me know cause if you don't like it I guess I'm jus wasting my time.

Internet Hugs,

Ka'u

Poll the masses...

or the small amount of people that follow this blog.

Anyways, I was thinking that I wanted to start blogging on here again but I wasn't sure if there was any point, I mean it's mostly for me but you people matter to, so if you want me to, or don't want me to or just wanna say something to me, please, PLEASE comment below.

Thank you. (:

Visit this place.

It's easier to reblog...
Tumblr.
http://4theboyz.tumblr.com/

Change?

I think I like tumblr better then blogger now. /:

Day 6

Day 6

Dear Stranger,

I saw you last night at the party. I wanted to say hi and laugh with you about the old times but instead I turned around and walked away. Hiding behind my friends in the process to avoid anything more then that first moment where our eyes met. I figured if I looked more then once it obligated me to go over there and say something and that definitely wasn’t about to happen. It’s sad to see that your a stranger to me now, we use to be such good friends.

Love,

A Sort-of Stranger

Day 4 & 5

Day 5

Dear Dreams,

I’m scared of you. I don’t know if I’m ready. Scratch that, I know I’m not ready. I’d like to see you blossom into the life I know you can be, dreams. But that is gonna take a lot of faith, something of which I don’t have much of. It’s also gonna take some money and I don’t have much of that either. One side of me feels like giving up, throwing you in the trash and getting some smaller dreams but the other side says go big or go home. And maybe home is where I belong. When it comes time for August we’ll see what choice I made. But for now please don’t give up on me, dreams. Your the only real support I have.

Love,

Dreamer

Day 4

Dear Sister,

I love you. Nothing you could ever do will make me stop loving you. We’ve had it hard, we’ve been through a lot. I need to thank you for all of it. Without you life would have been different, maybe easier since I wouldn’t have had to take care of you for most of our childhood but it would definitely have been a lot more boring and lonely.

Putting aside all our “sisterly” bickering we’ve always gotten along fine. Recently though, you’ve lost me. And yeah I’m putting all the blame on myself. I avoid you. I don’t like the way you live your life, the things you’re doing. We’ve never been the mushy type so I’ve never told you. I try to laugh it off with you but this is no laughing matter.

I know times have been tough, losing your dad and brother but you need to grow up and take on some responsibility, just like I did when we “lost” mom, but do it for yourself this time, not for me. You deserve a better life then the one you’re living and a better future then the one you’re building.

I’m going off to college soon and hopefully before then we get close again. But please for your own sake try in school this year, hang out with some better people, have fun but don’t party to much and stay out of any real trouble. Be good for your mom them, and be strong for them as well.

The world is tough and you’ve seen that it can take the best people down with it. Don’t allow it to. Remember, I’m always here when you need me. I love you.

Love,

Your Sister

Oh and hair cut today.

I hate my hair now!

Day 2 & Day 3.

Day 2

Dear Crush,

It’s invisible to you, no I do not mean I am invisible, I meant what I said, it is. I gave up trying to bring it to light for you. I wish I took that picture’s advice a long time ago. Now I don’t even care to.

Half heartedly,Miss. Almost Invisible

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Day 3

Dear Mom,

You left a while back and sometimes it makes me sad even though I act all tough about it. I’ve always said I hated you for what you did but your still my mom none the less. There is only one thing I’m certain of is that I don’t want to be like you. So just so you know, I’m going to college, and I’m gonna get a job and I’m going to try and stop hurting the people who love me most and lastly whatever relationship I chose to be in I’ll try my hardest to make it work, I’m not the gold digger you are.

Love,

Your Daughter

Dear Dad,

I know I’m a bitch to you and I make mistakes but so do you. I wish you’d just see things from my shoes. I’ve tried from yours. I know how hard it must be. I wouldn’t be surprised if I ruined your life too. I seem to do that a lot. Maybe the future holds better things but right now I’m not ready to talk to you.

Love,

Your Daughter

Day 1 & 100th post!

(Day 1 of the letter writing project, and my 100th post! Special for my BFF!)

Dear Best Friend,

I don’t know how to explain your importance in my life and it’s about time I’ve tried. So here it goes: Even though you suck at giving advice, most times, you are always there to listen to me. And I think that’s better then anybody’s advice. You’re supportive of me, even when I feel the need to do or say something stupid. I know I can count on you. You tell me straight up what you think and how you feel. I value our brutal honesty. It allows me to trust what you say. You treat me as your equal, not a lesser, in our friendship and treat me more like family then a friend. To be completely honest I don’t know what I’d do without you.

Recently there have been moments where I questioned my future plans and although my intentions were originally to go to a college in the mainland I’m glad I changed my mind. Sometimes I feel like I should just stay on Maui because I know how hard living in O’ahu and paying for school will be but I know that whatever difficulties I need to endure in O’ahu you will be there to support me, like you always do. I’m excited for O’ahu, and scared, but I know that with my best friend by my side O’ahu will at the very least be a wonderful adventure.

So here’s to all the old adventures we’ve had and to all the new ones to come as well. Thank you best friend, I’m glad I’ve met you and even happier to know that I have a best friend like you. (:

Love,

Your BFF ----------------------->

Alright, I'm back, I'm back!

And to start off the long break I've had I've decided to embark on a little writing adventure. Join me if you wish. Here's the deets.

You can either send it to them (anonymously or with your name) or keep them to yourself. On this day you write a letter to:

Day 1 — Your Best Friend

Day 2 — Your Crush

Day 3 — Your parents

Day 4 —Your sibling (or closest relative)

Day 5 — Your dreams

Day 6 — A stranger

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend

Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you

Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from

Day 15 — The person you miss the most

Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country

Day 17 — Someone from your childhood

Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be

Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest

Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression

Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to

Day 23 — The last person you kissed

Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory

Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times

Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to

Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day

Day 28 — Someone that changed your life

Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to

Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

You can either send it to them (anonymously or personally) or keep them to yourself.

GOOD LUCK. Day 1 hopefully posted by tomorrow.

So if you didn't get the message yet...

I've been really busy. Busy enough to neglect my blog for so long.
Seriously though, it's excusable? I had graduation and my birthday. It's been a real hectic couple months.
I hope you bloggie people don't hate me. I promise I will come up with something more interesting then excuses. I would tell you about what I've been doing but it's to much to talk about. Maybe I'll pick one. We'll see. Be back ASAP!

Only the good die young...

So don't stop following me just cause I'm on sabbatical.
I'll be back SOON, I promise! (:

And this is why I'm gone.

<3

Happy Graduation Season Everyone!! :D